The Performance

Ok here's the part of our blog that I get to brag about my baby boy! Last night was his very first ever performance at school.....we were so excited! I've never been prouder of him in my life, it was the most exciting thing to see him walk up on stage and sing those (way too long) songs.

When he walked up on stage the first thing we saw him do was look for us. We read his lips when he was talking to the girl next to him asking "where's my mom?" Like mom and dad would EVER miss a performance he was in! The girl saw me and she pointed us out to him and he was all smiles after that =) They sang a song in spanish and then Feliz Navidad. He did an awesome job! Just a typical 5 year old that did great at first then got bored. I couldn't help but smile this huge cheesy smile the entire time. The best part of the performance is when he looked at us and gave a thumbs up. It was the most awesome thing in the world! We always do thumbs up when something goes good, and my baby gave me a thumbs up.

I can't get the video to load so here's a couple pics.....I'm such a Mom!

So Ready!



Looking for us


There's my baby!

A Slow Road Ahead

Well my Hunny is home! He came home Friday afternoon and.....it's gonna be a slow road to recovery. So far he's lost 20 lbs because his throat is so sore from surgery he can't eat anything. They went in through his neck and kinda moved stuff over to get to his neck, hence the reason he's sore. He's still in a lot of pain although he says the numbness in his hands is starting to go away which is a very good sign.

We were never so glad to get him home! The kids made signs to welcome Daddy home, and as Danae told Leroy when he got out "Dad, Mom was lost with you gone". She was so telling the truth. I was completely lost without him here, he's my rock.

So maybe things will turn around for us, things can only get better from here right? Here's some randomness for the day.....So I always say I can't stand this town, and for the most part it's just something to blame on all the bad stuff that's happened in the last year and a half. In this town live some pretty wonderful people. I'll call them Mr. & Mrs Kindhart. They are a wonderful, caring and genuinely generous people. I've come to see them regularly when I'm working here in Fillmore and they are so sweet. Before I took off for Leroy's surgery Mr. Kindhart asked for our address because Mrs. Kindhart wanted to bake something for us. I said you don't have to do that and gave our address. Lo and behold, today they came over with a homemade lasagna! (I've been craving lasagna for weeks but didn't want to bake it myself) Me and my emotional self cried at the true generosity of them. I can't even begin to thank them and how special it was to come over. And the lasagna was awesome! The world is a horrible place sometimes, but it's people like these that make me think we can make it here.

And....I finished my Christmas cards! Anyone who truly knows me knows I take cards seriously. There are no bought cards in this house baby, all handmade here. Hallmark gets 0% of my paychecks. I'm usually done by now, actually I was done I just hadn't put them together which is the hard part. So this weekend I sat myself down and finished. I stamped, colored, flocked and glittered every single one by hand! I love making something with my own hands, it makes me feel useful and give something that can't be bought. I know, I'm a little nutty =)
Danae decided to decorate her dresser for Christmas!

The First Step

Well, it's done, Leroy had his surgery to relieve the compression on his spinal cord yesterday! As excited as I am, I'm so incredibly scared at the same time.....

We dropped Derrick off at school and then Danae, Leroy & I headed towards the hospital (of course stopping at each store to check for hotwheels....it's tradition after all). We were to check in at 9am and then we sat until 10:10 before they called him up to the pre-op area. This is where Danae & I said our teary-eyed goodbyes. It didn't hit me until the nurse called him up and I didn't want to let him go. I don't know who was crying worse, Danae or myself. We were two heartbroken girls. Quick fix for Danae was a trip to the 99 cent store for a drink. For me it was biting off all my nails and worrying myself to an ulcer.

Danae was getting figity after a couple hours so we gave the admit nurse my cell number to call if ANYTHING happened. Finally at 1:45 the doctor called me as I was headed out to pick up Derrick from school. He said everything went well and he only had to fuse L4-L5 and didn't touch L-6. I guess 4 and 5 were worse than he thought because he didn't know how Leroy could even function with the damage that was there. He said he's very optimistic on his recovery so we can hope for the best!

After getting Derrick & making my round of phone calls we headed over to the hospital which was a mistake. I knew the kids wouldn't be able to see him but I guess they thought by going there Daddy was coming home.....um no, then I have 2 kids and mom all in tears because Daddy isn't coming home. Needless to say Wednesday was hectic.

Today we've called him and he sounds like he's doing better, he said he's still in pain and feeling weak but they do have him up and walking around which is good. I'm so hoping he gets to come home tomorrow, I'm going crazy without my other half here with me. Leroy's oxygen levels went down so they had to put him back on the oxygen which makes my wheels start turning thinking of all the bad stuff that could happen....The kids are keeping me going, I'm functioning on M&M's and Diet Pepsi, and I can't sleep. I miss my Hunny!!!! I want him home so I can see him and make sure he's ok, this is horrible! I know it's all so he can get better, at least hopefully they've fixed the problem so he's not in pain anymore.

Since I can't sleep, I've managed to scrub my bathroom on my hands and knees so it's spotless and the same with the kitchen....can't have my Hunny come home to a germ infested house, no infections here!